Saturday, September 19, 2009

A Gloomy Place: Rather Boggy & Sad

I don't really know what it is. Looming PMS? The mild letdown of returning to regular life after a great getaway? The overwhelming feeling of returning to IF treatments and failing to get results?

I don't know. But I just feel down. Just mildly so. But enough of a funk that I feel like my usual (?) sass and humour have taken a nosedive and disappeared for the past couple of days. I haven't even really felt like blogging. But I'm all abouts the "keepin' it real" so Internetz, you're getting the good, the bad and the ugly from me. I guess this is a bit of the ugly.

Work has been really stressful. August was a hellish month and September is proving no better. I won't bore you with the details but Monday in particular is going to be nothing short of awful. I think that might be part of the reason I feel like dwelling in this gloomy place. I know without knowing details it's probably hard to relate, care, or feel any kind of sympathy, but if you're one for sending prayers, good thoughts, happy ju-ju, or whatever please feel free to send it my way and know that I'll be passing it on as well.

In other news, my period - should it dare show up on time is probably due any day now. If it doesn't show up by CD-35 I have a prescription for Provera burning a hole in my purse should I decide that I'm going to go for it this cycle. Part of that decision will depend on my conversation with my ND on Monday (after said nightmare at work).

So for now I shall dwell in this gloomy place, rather boggy and sad. But I'm happy for some company should you have some words of wisdom or just care to sit by my side.


jenicini said...

Sitting right next to you. Wanta open a bottle of wine? :)

Beautiful Mess said...

I've been in a bit of a funk, as well. I can feel it slowly lifting, but it's still here. The nothing BUT fat hot chocolate I had helped a lot. Or maybe it was the Kahlua and peppermint Schnapps I had last night. Who knows! I'll sit with you, hold your hand, sending you some good JUJU and we can make fun of men. That ALWAYS makes me smile ;o)

Mrs Bee said...

Mmm...must be in the air.
I'm opting to sit down next to you, open a bottle of wine and screech (in my bestest singing voice) empowering'm open to suggestions.
I just spent yesterday and today looking after my god children and now I'm moody and playing the woe is me game.
On the plus side Chocolate is reaaally helping.

Anonymous said...

Hey, darlin'. I'm sorry you're feeling down. Hope it's simply PMS and that your period arrives ASAP! When I've had long cycles, I've gotten pretty down after 30 days as well. But, for what it's worth, I've learned a lesson this time - it isn't necessarily a bad thing to have a long cycle - your body may be doing exactly what it's supposed to be doing. If I hadn't gone in for bloodwork to see what was going on, they never would have caught the egg I was about to release - do you think your RE would let you come in and take a look at your hormone levels (before taking Provera)? It might be helpful info for you and your ND to understand where you are at. Also, I'm convinced that the homeopathic remedies and Chinese herbs I was taking were helpful to me this last long cycle...if you want to ask your ND about the remedies, they are:
They are taken with the cycle of the moon.
I don't have the list of herbs in the formula I was taking handy right now, but if you're interested, please e-mail me and I'll send it along. Sending you lots of hugs and good energy - this too shall pass. XOXO

Illanare said...

I wish I had some wise words to offer but in the absence of those, pull up a chair. I'm on my way with wine, chocolate and marshmallows.

Sorry you are feeling so low. Hugs

Anonymous said...

*hugs* I'm sorry your feeling down and work is being a pain. I hope your day tomorrow doesn't suck as much as you think it's going too. *sends happiness, cookies, and sparkles*

Clare said...

Sorry you're feeling down in the dumps. I've been there for the last few weeks too. It's definitely going around. I love the picture of Eore though! He makes me wana hug! So here I am sending a big bear hug your way!

Michelle said...

Feeling like this sucks. I'm with you right now. It does get better. It always does.

Busted Tube said...

I hope your Monday turns out to be less terrible- sending you good juju to help with that!
Take good care of yourself even as you do a little wallowing, remember to be extra nice to yourself- spoiling yourself with hot chocolate and funny movies or whatever floats your boat.

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad I found your blog.I'm 30 something TTC as well and sometimes it feels like it's never gonna happen. It sucks but I move on. Hope you having a better day today :-)

Fran said...

Big hugs my friend. Looking forward to reading your update on the visit, Fran

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