Oh Internetz, I hope that the holidays have been good to you! Mine was filled with family, friends, and lots of good food. And now, here we are on December 31, 2010. This (sometimes long, challenging, painful) year is coming to an end and a new one begins.
Are you sentimental about the start of a new year, Internetz? Hopeful? Full of resolutions?
For me, it depends. Some years I am very hopeful and sentimental about the start of a year - while other years I could care less and just want to get on with things.
I'm feeling the former for the upcoming 2011.
Maybe this is why.
This past fall, as Irish Boy and I took an extended break from fertility treatments (due to finances) we came to a decision. Actually it was a decision we made long ago - but ended up not pursuing it when Irish Boy was out of work.
Internetz, I have kept a secret from you for the past few months and I hope you'll forgive me. But Irish Boy and I are now homestudy approved to adopt. We will be adopting through the foster care system (CAS to my Canadian friends) and we have never felt happier, more at peace, and more excited.
Let me be clear: this is in NO way a comment on those pursuing IVF or other treatments - I've said it before and I'll say it again, my IVF girls are the bravest I know. IVF isn't totally off the table for us in the future -- but admittedly, it's teetering on the edge.
Adoption felt right to us so long ago, but when jobs were lost and not found for a long time, we never thought we'd get approved. With that turning around in the past year with Irish Boy landing a great new job with job security, our hearts went back to where we began this journey (long before I ever blogged or tweeted).
We did 9 weeks of mandatory classes, had our visits with our (amazing) social worker - and just before Christmas the homestudy was approved: signed, sealed and delivered.
So now we're in a new kind of waiting game - but this time, we can barely contain our excitement.
For us, this feels so very right - it is not the labour I had intended to have when I dreamed of having a family, but it is equally a labour of love.
So 2011 could in fact be a very exciting year.
I hope, Internetz, that you'll stick around for the ride.
Happy New Year to each of you -- may 2011 bring you all the wishes that you dream for.