Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Dramatic Turn

Oh Internetz, get ready for one doozy of "As The Follicles Grow!"

Time for another wanding this morning and the usual ultrasound tech was on her day off so I had the other one. For the first time. No problems, that is, until she got going! My poor ovaries didn't know what hit them! Roughest ultrasound tech ever. EVAH. As I tweeted earlier, "I'm not sure, but I think I may be the tech's bitch now." More inappropriate infertility humour!

Anywho.

After blood work with Nurse Awesome I was put on hold to wait on the call to find out whether I'd need one last dose of Follistim tonight or whether it was time to trigger. Well the call just came in about half an hour ago saying that my estrogen levels have shot up and tonight is trigger time! My dIUI is scheduled for Friday morning.

Yay right? Oh yes, I was blissful, Internetz! Three beautifully mature follicles ready to trigger. Upcoming IUI. What could possibly go wrong?

That's when I spoke to Nurse Awesome. My RE, my lovely RE, is not available friday so the other doctor will do it. The same doctor that has pretty much from the get go made me feel somewhat inadequate due to poor/slow response (they can suck on that this time!) among other things. So negative feelings abound. But it's not just that. My last dIUI was with her and it was awful. She couldn't get through my cervix at the last one and essentially blamed me for it.

So now I'm sitting at work, fighting back tears, devastated that all of the wonderful things that have happened thus far this cycle may be lost to one crappy IUI.

I know, I know. I should remain positive. Wait and see what happens. I know that partly I am a creature of habit and I'm disappointed because the RE and I have a good IUI game plan that works well. Even sharing this game plan with the other doctor has not translated into a positive experience. All that and with Irish Boy's work schedule, he won't even be able to be with me on Friday morning.

You can bet that I'll be sporting one pair of my SITM socks (post on that coming later) because I think I need them more than ever now.

Hang on to your hats, Internetz, I may need to live tweet this thing on Friday morning in the hopes that some of you can get me through.

30 comments:

Heather said...

Last cycle, they had a mess trying to get the catheter past my cervix. This cycle, same Dr, I was dreading it. Easy Peasy. I hope the same thing happens to you. Hang in there, Honey. We are all out here Cheering you on!! This is it!!

Crossed Fingers said...

I hope the doctor is nicer this go around and hopefully this dIUI works for you. It sounds like your body is on your side at least!

Vanilla Bean said...

I know how you feel! I go to a teaching hospital..so my last IUI sucked, too. Not only did the med student inject it too fast, he couldn't find where to inject it, and then spilled some. I was in tears the minute they left the room. And, DH wasn't there with me, either.

Hopefully, this time goes better for you. KMFX for some good news!!

..Soo.See.. said...

Oh man. I'm cheering you and your beautiful follies on! Hope that Dr is with it, on Friday - or else, straighten her out beforehand! ;) We've got your back, girl! Thinking of you!! And woot for triggering tonight!!

Busted Kate said...

Oh man! That sucks, I'm sorry. Maybe it's meant to be though, and something this doc does this time will be magical and things will go well.

In any event, I am crossing my fingers for you. Good luck, I'll be thinking of you on Friday!

Chelle said...

Hooray for all of the good news about your cycle. But it totally sucks you had a bad sonographer who apparently has never had the exprience of being on your end of the wang-cam, and so, has no compassion. And boo about having the crappy doctor again. If it is anyone's fault last time didn't work, its theirs, due to ineptitude. If they blame you this time, tell them that they are the one who can't do their job right, not your cervix.

Good luck on Friday despite the stupid doctor. :)

Kindra said...

Bring NonAwesomeDoc flowers. Works every time.

jenicini said...

Yay it's time to trigger! Hopefully this time she has learned and will be a pro. :) I'll be thinking of you!!!

Kel said...

Good Luck and try to stay positive! Stress is not your friend!

Fran said...

First thing first. Great things on three super duper follicles!!! That's brilliant girl and so happy for you!!

Next. if the RE on friday has the face to make inappropriate comments on your follicle/cervix or anything else you are now prepared and can spit back an appropriate answer such as "it's already difficult being infertile without your added comments" or "I hope you'll never have to go through this yourself and having to deal with an unsympathetic RE on the day of your IUI"

We'll all be holding your hands pet, be strong, everything is giong perfectly well, friday will be no exception! Fran

Mugsy said...

I'm crossing my fingers and toes. I had 3 mature follies at my last DIUI...and it worked...I was going to make a smarty pants comment about the RE, but Fran's rebuttals are WAY better.

Beautiful Mess said...

Oh how I love Fran's comment! I say do THAT! I'm crossing all things crossable for ya, love, as well as sending you SO much good JUJU!!

I say YES to the live Tweeting, btw.
*HUGS*

finch said...

My cervix was "uncooperative" for my IUI's as well, and I definitely noticed a difference between the awesome doctor and the other guy that sometimes does IUI's doctor. I'm sure the results, no matter who does the basting, will be the same - lots of good sperm fighting for a chance to meet your lovely eggs. Good luck!

Jennifer said...

Yeah for three follies! Boo for the dr. I am going to remain positive though. I'm with Fran...have a comment planned ahead to say if there are any stupid comments. Don't let this dr interfere with all the other great stuff happening this cycle!

Plaidy said...

You need to remain positive for more reasons than, "Oh well, it's too soon to start freaking out".

Our moods have a lot to do with our bodies. You know how people who stress out get ulcers? Well, there's no reason to think that worrying over this wont prematurely hurt your chances for a successful IUI and what not. You need to pull it together. I know it helps to blog about it. And we are ALL proud of you for your courage and strength. But you're going to have to be stronger. You have to. Your body is depending on you to show it that YOU'RE THE BOSS. Don't let your hormones or body see any sign of weakness. You OWN this upcoming IUI. You OWN it and CLAIM it. You got that? You can do this. You are the one in charge. Not your body. Sometimes it doesn't feel like it...and I know for a lot of us, it never feels like we're in charge...but we are. So get to it girl! And make it happen! And even if it IS a crappy IUI, you get started on owning the next one!

Al said...

My first IUI was so easy, catheter went in with no problem. In in out in minutes, no problem.

This cycle, my cervix apparently didn't want to cooperate. It bent two catheters, and took the nurse forever to get through. She was kneeling on the ground trying to get different angles and seriously sweating. I don't know what the heck happened, but all I care about is all those sperm eventually made it in there save and sound!

Hope the doc doesn't give you any crap and even more that they have no problem getting through your cervix. GL tomorrow!

Al said...

Oops, I meant safe and sound...

Just Me...C said...

Trigger time! Yayyyyy. The bitch comment is hilarious. I'm a former probation officer so needless to say I can really appreciate the humor. Sorry your doc is not going to be there but on a positive note...it is an IUI so just keep you eye on the prize and block out the rest!

Holly said...

hopefully your RE documented the trouble she had getting into your cervix last time and documented it so she will be prepared this time and get it RIGHT! Fingers crossed for a painless trigger, a peaceful iui, and great big fat positive!

lowfatlady said...

Yea for good follies and getting to trigger. I'm sorry your normal doctor won't be doing the iui. I hope that the other doctor was just having a bad day and remembers the difficulties last time so that it will be much easier this time. Good luck!

Kelly said...

Great news about your follies and being able to trigger! I hope that the other doctor is nicer this time and that all goes well with the IUI.

Sarah said...

Double "ugh." That sucks. I wish you could have your reg dr, but just stay positive! I know its hard to though. This could be it! :) Very exciting. I'll be hopin' and prayin' for you on fri. :)

Mad Hatter said...

Aw, FC, I'm so sorry that you won't get your RE on Friday, and that DH can't be there with you...I hope that you are pleasantly surprised by how nice she is and how smoothly it goes, and know that we will all be thinking of you and supporting you! (WOO-HOO for your three follicles!!!)
Love,
Maddy

Suzy said...

My fingers and toes are crossed for you!

Ashley said...

Thats great about the follies. Hoping that the doctor does a better job this time and that this gets you your BFP!!

subfertilefrugalista said...

This episode just keeps us all guessing! Hoping beyond hope that things go well and that it isn't painful. Lots of luck that *this*is*it*!!

Michelle said...

Stay positive! You have great follies and everything will go fine.
I will be watching for your Twitter updates!

Mrs. Gamgee said...

Hey girl... I'm not going to tell you to stress, because that would just be silly. I will say, tho, I will be praying for you (and the not-so-great doc). You aren't alone... we are all out here pulling for you!

Baby On Mind said...

Sorry you doc won't be there for your IUI. Hope this doctor does a better job this time around. I didn't even get a doctor to do IUIs at my clinic, just nurses. Good luck!! Praying this is it for you!

aladdinsane12 said...

you'd think if there was one job where NOT being rough is a requirement, it'd be ultrasound tech! did she also yell, "say my name!" ??

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