Internetz, tomorrow I head into the fertility clinic - for the first time since early June (aka my last failed cycle) - for a visit with the RE. I'm still on my break until at least next cycle but I wanted to see her to chat and possibly get a sense of the 'game plan' as we move forward.
I have to confess. I'm nervous. Nervous about going back to the clinic and starting this whole fucked up process again. Nervous about how many more cycles this may take us. Nervous about the fact that what little insurance coverage we have is almost up and I don't know how we'll ever be able to afford this on our own. Nervous that the RE will just declare me a lost cause.
I know I have at least a month to go, but the thought of bloodwork, dildo cams, and injections from home a la Irish Boy make me want to scream.
Will it all just fall back into routine like it was before my break?
Keep your fingers crossed that the RE is full of optimism and light. Guess I'd better savour what's left of my break before the craziness begins again.